So yesterday was probably the worst last day of school every. It was like super windy and it rained while I was walking with my friends to go pick something up. I got blisters on my feet from walking in these stupid flip flops. I didn't want to hang out with them but they made me feel bad cuz last year they were my best friends and this year I barely hung out with them. I felt so awkward with them because the stuff they were doing were totally against my standards. So I pretty much just sat there being the odd one out. Oh well I got to ride a 2 seater bike. It was fun. Then at mutual I got kneed in the head and my glasses got all bent. blah
Today started out horrible but I told myself that today was going to be a good day and so far it has been. I had like a really bad headache and throat ache this morning and I still have them but my day is still amazing. So far today I've worked out and gone to the park and tonight I'm going to Zach's BBQ.
Next week I'm gonna be at Meagan's house from like Tuesday til Friday. It's gonna be fun but I'm still bummed because I don't get to go to Mexico with my uncle and cousin. Lately I've been feeling so left out of my family. I feel like I'm not welcome and like my uncle could care less if something happened to me. I may be wrong about the last thing but I can't help but feel that way. I get so frustrated because I have so many mixed feelings about my uncle. Like I love everything he has done for me but then I'm angry because lately he hasn't been treating me the same.
Life is so confusing. I wish we could know where our lives would be in a few years instead of having to always wonder. Wondering always makes stuff worse because on those days when you have to much time to think, you always think about the worst possible stuff, or at least that's how it goes for me. Hmm I don't think I had a lesson learned to day.... just a lot of thoughts.... but whatever...