So today was okay. I spent the night at Jamie's house last night. She had to drop me off early in the morning cuz she had to clean. I hung out with Shelby this afternoon and said bye to Sister Wilcock. It seems like every leader we get really close to moves. First Rachel and now Sister Wilcock and Sister Bischoff. It makes me sad. Well at least Rachel's still in Vegas. Sister Wilcock and Sister Bischoff are moving to Utah.
Today was also another day of feeling left out and not belonging. People try to help but it never really seems to help. Meagan tells me to sing this song but I have no clue what it is. I've never heard it before in my life. So I guess I have to wait for Meagan to share it with me tomorrow.
If only things were different, is the comment that always pops into my head. But things aren't different, so we have to deal with things the way they are because life is not fair. We can't always get what we want in life, so we have to make with what we have. No matter how much or little it is. It was given to us for a reason.
Blah I was just playing outside and now I'm all gross. Oh ya I got a new cousin. I don't know what it is yet. haha I'm mean but ya I feel really bad for that kid. Well I'm happy that my aunt adopted it but I feel bad because of who my aunt probably wants this little kid to be. She is such a perfectionist that she'll probably want this kid to be perfect the way she tried to make me and my brother be but thank goodness I was a pain in her butt haha. I was a bad child.
I don't think I had a little lesson today but enjoy my thoughts for the day

okay so i lied, yesterday was better than the day before but when it became night ..... ugh sometimes I wish cetain events didn't happen but whatever they happened for a reason I do not know yet. Sometimes I just get so fed up with everything. It seems like the things I do don't matter. I hate feeling this way but I can't pretend like nothing happened.
So today I was supposed to hang out with Rachel but that didn't happen. I miss her so much. I haven't seen her in so long. Instead I ended up ..... can't say but it wasn't a good choice. I hung out with Jamie, Ebony, Ange, and Nikki. It was fun but I would've rather been with Rachel. I got home and you know that overwhelming feeling of reality just coming down on you. I felt that. Everything is so hard and I just want to quit but life isn't a game you can just give up on. No matter how hard we want to, life isn't worth giving up because things get better you just have to have a good attitude. On one of my friend's blogs, she has a story about this girl who only had 3 strands of hair. One day she decided she was going to braid those 3 hairs, so she did and she had a great day. The next day she only had 2 hairs, so she decided to part her hair down the middle and had a great day. The day after that she only had 1 hair, so she decided she was going to put up and had a great day. The day after that she had no hair and she exlaimed " Thank Goodness!!!! now I don't have to do my hair" I think this is that attitude we should all have because other people's lives can be harder than ours. The only difference between ours and theirs is our attitude.
So ya my lesson for the day... hope you enjoyed it..

Uh today was okay. Better than yesterday. Had a stuco meeting which was fun... i don't know how else to explain it lol. Shelby has a choir concert but I don't know if I want to go to it. So ya everyday I learn something new that helps me and i like it. Even though most of the time I don't like what i learn.
Today I've been thinking alot about the stuff in life I've missed out on and I've realized that some events might've been important and others i happened to miss out on that just didn't happen. I don't know why life is so unfair but that's why we have Heavenly Father with us all day everyday. He helps us know where to go and what to do. Through experience I have learned that falling back on someone I can't see is hard,I still don't fully fall back on God. I just have trust issues and I know i shouldn't have them but i can't help the fact that I've been hurt so much in my life. Thinking about these things sucks but I can't hide them forever. It is what it is and my experiences have made me who I am and I have the people I need in my life and that's what matters the most. They teach me something new everyday and help me through everything I'm going through.
Blah... these are my random thoughts of the day that nobody would've ever heard or even knew I had if it wasn't for this blog thing. ugh sometimes I wish I could change the way things happened but that's never going to happen... okay I'm done with my rant...

So far today is really boring. Um i went to school and then Sis. Burley never picked me up from school :*( sad day. So I have just been laying in my bed since I've been home. I have a volleyball game in a little. I think we're gonna lose but can't let Sis. Paul know that. There is only like 6 more days of school. It's so weird how the school year goes by so slow yet so fast. In two years I'm going to have to start my life, it's so weird to think about. Gosh I don't even know what I want to do. Well I guess this is part of life. Nothing is for sure but at least we always know that we have God on our side and if we do want He asks of us then we'll be headed in the right direction.

messing around

You would think that messing around with this would make it easier, but it doesn't. This thing still really confuses me and Christiana's help isn't that good. She like knows everything and then tries to explain it but i don't get it. UGH!!!! And having to clean my room all day doesn't really help my attitude >=/ but at least my room is clean :) well mostly cleanl. Everything is where its supposed to be and my uncle approved it so i guess I'm in the clear..... for now.

setting this up

Okay so I trying to set this up with Christiana's help and it's really hard. I don't like this but I'm gonna make it look AMAZING because I'm thinking... if i do a bunch of complicated things on this, then the little things will be easy.