okay so i lied, yesterday was better than the day before but when it became night ..... ugh sometimes I wish cetain events didn't happen but whatever they happened for a reason I do not know yet. Sometimes I just get so fed up with everything. It seems like the things I do don't matter. I hate feeling this way but I can't pretend like nothing happened.
So today I was supposed to hang out with Rachel but that didn't happen. I miss her so much. I haven't seen her in so long. Instead I ended up ..... can't say but it wasn't a good choice. I hung out with Jamie, Ebony, Ange, and Nikki. It was fun but I would've rather been with Rachel. I got home and you know that overwhelming feeling of reality just coming down on you. I felt that. Everything is so hard and I just want to quit but life isn't a game you can just give up on. No matter how hard we want to, life isn't worth giving up because things get better you just have to have a good attitude. On one of my friend's blogs, she has a story about this girl who only had 3 strands of hair. One day she decided she was going to braid those 3 hairs, so she did and she had a great day. The next day she only had 2 hairs, so she decided to part her hair down the middle and had a great day. The day after that she only had 1 hair, so she decided she was going to put up and had a great day. The day after that she had no hair and she exlaimed " Thank Goodness!!!! now I don't have to do my hair" I think this is that attitude we should all have because other people's lives can be harder than ours. The only difference between ours and theirs is our attitude.
So ya my lesson for the day... hope you enjoyed it..