Things I've realized.... Things that are so simple can be the most difficult..I've disappointed myself and probably my parental units but I doubt they're as disappointed as I am in myself and actions. I feel as I've stabbed my back and am left in a corner to die. I want so much for someone to come in and fix it for me but it ain't never gonna happen. Pretty much I feel like I have to fake my emotions. I have every right to feel what I want but it will always affect who's around me. That freakin is so dumb. I wish I could feel what I wanted to and not have to worry about what others think. I don't know who I am, are, was.... who I want to be... It's such a scary thought. I know what I want but I'm not willing to try and get there... Sometimes getting what you want isn't what you really want..