just when I think things are going good and I might have a chance at happiness, things change and go in the opposite direction. Today I found out what my dad's thoughts were on my whole situation and he pretty much broke me :*( He is against everything even though that may be my happiness. He says he would do anything for my happiness, yet he won't see things the way I do. He just makes me feel like I'm nobody and I have no say in what goes on in my life, yet it's my life. If he truely wanted my happiness, why won't he let me do what would make me so happy :*(. I don't understand and maybe I never will but I'm going to do what I want to do and what I know and feel is right no matter what anybody says. I know the Lord will be on my side, He will always be there for me. I just need to believe and have faith in myself and others and the Lord that this will get better.